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dreams

I used to dreams about you. almost every single day that time I liked you so much and it brings me pain my heart feels so hurt after waking up from my dreams because I can't reach you out

your wake up calls

not recently but I realize after you left when there is no wake-up calls it got me fucked up sometimes I didn't attend my class I couldn't get up  because I forget to told my mom to wake me up even I set my alarms I didn't work but a single word from your mouth help me a lot

cold

I was trembling your cold eyes your cold voice your cold heart put all the blame on me put it on me I'm the one who falls I'm the one who tries I'm the one who cries "no more tears you'll be okay" I said to myself every day i'll become stronger i'll forget you i'll erase this feeling just like the words "fake it till you become it"

no idea

I have no idea why am I crying at 9 am because of this song?

no regret

its midnight and suddenly i want to write something selesai sudah hmmm actually this is my first time loving someone this sincere huek first time juga aku jadi orang blak-blakan gila emang but i have no regret aku udah belajar banyak banget dari belajar punya hati yang besar iyaloh, buat loving someone in my case like this, bener-bener harus siap hati wkwk belajar stay positive heran sama aku yang naksir orang kok bisa positive thinking terus gt lho? ini juga first time seumur idup lol belajar always be grateful!!! even this year i lost three person (my grandma, my brotha, and him) that i loved, i still should be grateful, god always know the best apalagi ya banyak pokoknya aku yang sekarang beda bgt sama yang dulu i never told anyone how i feel back then sekarang mah ceplas ceplos yang malah (mungkin) itu jadi burden buat orang yang aku sayang hmmm tapi aku juga nyadar aku gamau dikasih reaction yang setengah2 ya? yaudah nggak? yaudah kalo ada yang ng...